One night at training camp we stayed up all night in worship and prayer, taking shifts as a squad. I signed up for a shift in the wee hours of the morning and finished up around 3 am. Another girl and I were walking back to our campsite equipped with our trusty headlamps to light our way. Only this night there was a thick fog that descended over the grounds. As we walked, I was struck at how all consuming this fog was. Our lights only gave as the smallest view of where our journey was taking us even though we knew the destination. 

We were struck how the fog was like Holy Spirit. All consuming, swirling around us, palpable yet also intangible, that most the time we are only given sight to what is just in front of us but not beyond, behind or next to us. You see we have to take each step in faith to see a little bit further.

I’ve had many emotions as I near my launch in a week. These last couple weeks at home have actually been really hard in feeling really distant from Jesus and spiritually unprepared. And then filling myself with self doubt that this is where I’m at before embarking on a year long missions trip. I have also been thinking and planning on the future, but in trying to have no expectations and give Holy Spirit freedom, my vision for that future ends at January 12th. Everything after is fully walking into the unknown with the Lord. 

Tonight I was driving home through another thick fog, like can hardly see 600 ft in front of you kind of fog. It was like this the entire hour drive home, but I wasn’t scared or nervous about what lay ahead because I knew this road. It was there that Jesus reminded me of my night at training camp. He is not distant, Holy Spirit is visibly all around me right now and though I may not know what this journey holds, I don’t need to fear it because I KNOW Him. Just like at camp and on the road tonight, as I trust in Jesus and take another step He illuminates just a little bit more of my journey. We don’t need to fear the journey because we can trust His destination for us.

Don’t allow self doubt to limit what God has in store for you. And don’t be surprised when you find God talking to you through the everyday things of this life.